Counting down to 7 DAYS!

Yesterday collected my Admission Form from NUH, Pre-admission Dept..

Hate to receive this form from them but do not have a choice... If nvr go for this scan, will nvr know if my Operation still can be proceed in Dec..

I'm tired of using 1 hand to work & live, e feeling is miserable.. Guess no one will understand.. People will just tell me, u r not the only one who suffer.. There're alot more people who suffered more than me..

Haiz, talk is easy.. Anyway they're not the one who suffer..

No matter what now, just wait for the day to come.. Counting down to 7 days!

Grant my wish, please!

When was the last time i updated my blog..

Times filies real fast.. Is coming to end soon for 2008..

What was being done in 2008..?? Ask myself this question sometime.. Can't really answer myself this question too as my life is seem to be a real mess.. Been thru the worst things in lives that not many people will go thru..!!

Nobody understand what m i thinking sometimes, nobody noe what I really want too.. Always tell myself, since life is short.. Enjoy to the fullest!!

But.... Really dunno how to enjoy myself!!

With my current condition, what's there to enjoy about..??

Friends always tell me there're still places that I've yet to go & do.. but do they really understand what I want, even I, myself dunno what I too.. :(

There's nothing I looking forward to be frank.. Even lost hope for my future..!!

I'm thinking how to let go myself without feeling pain.. I'm tired of using my brain to think about all the unneccessary things..

My life seem to be a drama to me.. Maybe is time to end it!!

2009 is coming round the corner.. dun really looking for it....
Just wonder how long God want me to continue suffer..??

I pray to end it soon... Let me go in a peaceful way...
You may see me smiling everyday but actual my heart is crying everyday...!!